Twenty-six was an inquisitive year. I wrote this July 15, 2011. I just got back from visiting my baby sister in southern California, a trip that I had hoped would bring clarity to where I should be and what I should be doing. Instead, I met an Aussie who I ended up falling in love with. In many ways, he gave me the world. For that, I am grateful.
July 15, 2011
What is my purpose?
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about my purpose in life. I see my purpose in my family and among my friends. I see the purpose in the roles that I play day to day. I see my purpose as a daughter, a sister, a friend, a citizen. But what is my purpose as a human being?
Is my purpose to be successful? To make awholelotta money? To become famous and influential? I don't know. Yet the older I get and the more conscious I become, I'm learning that success, money and being known doesn't equate to happiness. Without love, success is just another milestone, money is just paper and being known is actually really lonely. When it comes down to it, the pursuit of happiness is the ultimate purpose. But we forget that happiness looks different for each of us.
I'm generally a happy person. By default, I'm happy. Lock me in a room and tell me that nothing outside of the box matters, I'll be happy. Because of this it's difficult to decipher which path to walk when every path can be pleasing. So it isn't until I'm forced into a space outside of my natural state of bliss that I discover what truly makes me happy. In those moments when my heart smiles and my face lights up, I learn what truly makes me happy--directing me towards the right path--and getting me closer and closer to my purpose.
I know that my purpose doesn't lie within the four walls of Tai-Li Market, not even the city limits of Tacoma. I know what I want to do, but not sure what I'm meant to do. What I do know is that I love making a difference in other people's lives--whether it's my family or with a random stranger. Serving is the foundation of my purpose as a human being. I'm learning to listen...really listen to people, to learn how I can be utilized best.